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Thursday, October 8th, 2009
5:03 pm	so i caught head lice.... And shaved my head i now have a mohawk :) it looks good <3 ( MOHAWK!!!! ) so the guy in the pictures is grady the guy i was talking about in the last entry ^^ <3 im hapy with my hair i really like it Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 30th, 2009
12:32 am	so im happy in my descion on the road ...ohio isnt my fav place in the world but right now Its exactly where i want to be. i ve a nice deal worked out with a friend up here he gives me attention and keeps me warm and i keep him warm and we know we wont date....we've talked about it a few times and we are both alot to handle and probably wouldnt be good for each other ^^; and it just seems to work out :) its kind of nice knowing i can be me and i still have someone there :) He'll be getting on the rennie road after traveling for a while... so i'll have him to cuddle with in Louisiana :) It's nice and great for me to have this type of friendship. I know now i dont need a guy in my life :) But i do enjoy kisses and cuddling so this is great :) Its pretty coool but works going fantastic im enjoying t and gettting some killer muscles :) Oh my bangs are hot pink and i got my lip pierced :) it looks goood ^^ <3 But thats pretty much an update btw im near Cincinnati so thats like a two state drive from ga ^^ so call me and come hang out in ohio ^^: or come get me >>;; ( pink hair and lip ring pic ^^ ) Current Mood: content (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 14th, 2009
7:54 pm	So today has been a very peaceful day in New York. The renaissance festival has started up here kind of crappy. It's been raining and with ticket prices so high no one seems to be coming to faire. So I'm pushing my own ride at this fair. It's called a roundabout it's like a merry go round but I push it and the horses don't move up and down. It's a lot of fun but hard work I'm enjoying myself though. I know not everyone agrees with me traveling what this is what I am choosing to do. I know I can't do this forever. I'm young and have plenty of time to figure out exactly what I want to do with my life. I don't see the point in rushing to do something that doesn't make me happy. I don't want to grow old and look back at my life and regret all the things I wish I had done. I will go to college. When I'm ready I want to make sure if I'm going to spend my money on extra schooling that I know exactly what I want and what I want to do. I'm trying to live a life with no regrets mind you I do have some regrets, but doing what I love makes up for that. Most of you will see me in December when I go home, some of you will not and I'm sorry. I figured I should post my reasons for traveling sure I could stop having the same arguments and debates with the same people. Any ways the weather in New York is kind of screwy. Some days it's warm some days it's cold. It's starting to screw with my immune system. But I'm OK. I'm really starting to miss the warm weather of Georgia. So my tent started to leak so I have to buy a new one. Which sucks, but worth it. For now I'm sleeping in Kat and fezzick's truck. It's super comfy. They're letting me stay here until the next show so I can save money. It's really awesome of them. ^_^ i thnk thats all i have to say atm ^^ ill post agian soon miss you alll <3 maddi Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Second Chance Shinedown (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 22nd, 2009
8:16 pm	in Ny ^^ Glad to be back I miss everyone....so mch to type so little batter ill post agian soon ^^ Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 15th, 2009
2:57 pm	Happy Birthday Bur~~ Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 14th, 2009
12:16 am	Goodbye<3 To all my friends, I'm planning on going up to New York I will be traveling with the renaissance faire. I'm super excited to go this is putting my life in the right direction I know in my heart that this is what I wanna do. But I will not be online much but i promise i will update to let you all know i'm okay.... Also i broke up with Cory and feel loads bettter i have realized i want and crave love but im only 20 ^^ and i need to grow up a bit before i can handle that much emotional resposibility ^^ So Until GA fair rolls by agian i will not be in a true committed relationship.....This will help in the long run.... ive got to decide what i want for myself..... <3 I will miss you all <3 see you in DEC if your in GA if not more towards dec timeframe i will set up a post about meeting up wit friends in otehr states ESPECIALLLYYYYY HUNTSVILLEEE!~~~ (yes im missing AWA and D*con T^T) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Peice of Me Britney Spears ^^:: (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 19th, 2009
3:57 pm	Tuesday, May 19, 2009 2:34 AM So my life and recently has gone to shit. Everything is getting better all that time. Life might not be what I want to be, but it's getting better all the time. I'm sure that I as I get older everything will work out and its own special way. Hopefully there is a great future for me it's the only thing I can really hope for I'm planning on going on the road it's the only place I've really ever felt like I belonged. And i'm going try it for a year maybe this is what I need. Or maybe it's not. But I feel like I need to try it for an entire year to make sure it's not what I need. I'm having problems with Cory I love him but he is so young that being with him is difficult I don't know if I'm ready for such strong feelings and for the thought of forever. He is my everything by mentally and emotionally I'm not ready for this kind of feelings for this kind of love all I want is to be loved but now I realize I'm not capable of what I want yet I do not want to hurt him and hopefully he'll be there in the future I need some time to really think about what I want, who I want, where I want to be. I just really needed to put all these thoughts out there nothing is certain and I am not breaking up with Cory...I think I spend too much time in my head. In good news I made a new friend... That's all for tonight good night and pleasent dreams Current Mood: calm (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 14th, 2009
5:44 pm	.... I give up Life went from on track to de railing .....I haven't cried this hard in forever..... Everything went to hell but im alive end breathing thats enough right Current Mood: gloom cookie (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 4th, 2009
11:55 am	^o^ Faire is going okay got sick from standing out in the rain a bit too much but im happy ^^ Life is on track and going my way for once i get to go down to south florida and see my boy *i hope* :D I dont even care if this lasts or not anymore I'm happy and ive decided i want to live in this happiness now and not think about the future as much :) <3 hmmmmm you know that manogomy is alot harder than it looks....I haven't done anything... but its still hard i love him and i know im just going to run back to him but i like being cuddled with and kissed T^T and my friends arent helping this they know im not totally happy and they put on a smile and Hug me and kiss my forehead which is nice dont get me wrong ^^ but its not the same .... Damnit cory turn 18..... god that still sounds horrible in my mind ..... But not too bad of an age diffrence :) yay and not like he always acts 17 ^^::: *sigh* he's bound to get fed up with me sooner or later .... so im going to enjoy it while it lasts :) \ ah after the boy ^^ issues or whatever you want to call em im creating my cosplay list for this year :) YAY Go to GA Renaissance Festival and Ride the corkscrew tower :) Current Mood: cheerful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 14th, 2009
11:33 pm	ZOMBIESSS NO SERIOSULY ZOMBIES http://www.nola.com/news/?%2Fbase%2Fnews-1%2F1239081731120020.xml&coll=1 ITS HAPPENING!!!!!!! :3 Current Mood: anxious (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 27th, 2009
12:27 am	life of the gypsy thoughts on FLARF and boy situation :3 So im up in cold wet and cold Pittsburgh visiting wiht my buddy regan after the Florida Ren Faire (FLARF) and flarf went awesomley minus cody being a jealous jerk but we broke up and i got to enjoy my time in Florida and its funny the way people change when your away for a month from sweet and caring to jealous and unstable.....it astounded me how he thought i was cheating on him with any male i mentioned.....but good cam out of this and YES another boy..... LOL hes 17 and his name is cory >>; we didn't talk much at first seeing that i was dating cody and he knew he was jealous he didnt want to cause problems by talking with me orr spending too much time with me .............and he was right it would have caused problems so when i was upset and told him taht me and cody broke up we started to talk more ....and i envited him to stay wiht me jsut because it was cold...and i wanted someone to hold me so embarrising enough the meds i was taking that numb were not supposed to be swallowed and at work one day i swallowed quite alot and it made me feel sick and numbed everyhtinng inside me that was in my digestive track including my bladder so what happened the first night Cory slept in my tent i peed on him so embarrising. butt he came back to my tent said it was okay and hugged em and went to sleep ^^;;; the next weekend he asked if he could come back O_O and i was shocked who would want to come back and stay with a girl who peed on them xD but i let him in and with my luck my period started so i have now bled and peed on him XD he laughed and asked if i was trying to get rid of him hes super sweet and awesome alot of people i didnt know asked "how i was" after they found out he was staying with me....hje said " shes was fucking amazing and she didnt even touch me" ^o^ made my brain happy and alot more embarrisng things happened through the weeks XDD especially involing me XD and we decided to keep in touch and se eif maybe we could work something out int he future like once he graduates.......i feel like a pedophile..... lol hes super awesome and i cant wait to see him in june buttt im trying too figure out life agian and what i want to do is ren fair something i want to do full time or do i want to go to school graduate and pick up traveling until i need to get a job cause i cant handle the road anymore ...... or what.... its taking alotta will power @_@ and taking a break from the dating scene i know i know how many times have you heard that but i need maddi space.... time to hang out and enjoy my friends enjoy a semester of college and think and decide that cory's what i want cause i refuse to jsut string him along if hes not what i want so to come to this desicion single-ness is needeed and Cory takes up way too much phone time for any other boy XDDD but thats been life and if you want to know more gimmie a call if i dont pcik up im busy or sleeping <333 i'll be home in 3 days two weeks :) <3 thanks for putting up with your boy crazed gypsy XDD Current Mood: thoughtful (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 12th, 2009
9:13 am	YAYYYY UPDATE! *coughs* caps lock is ma friend ^.^ so anime south was awesome for everyone else but me i was stuck in a hotel bed w/ a fever and i worked so hard on my cosplay to wear it once for 10 min Y_Y but cody took care of me....and in turn i gots him sick >< leavign for FL in 3 weeks ^^ for a month for Faire that'll be exciting last faire for a while gotta concentrate on school ....or at least getting into schooll.... last but not least its really fucking cold....T^T so imma go walk to work w/ almost bronchitis i'll update more later <3 maddi Current Mood: cold (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 31st, 2008
5:36 am	ANIME SOUTH i'm leaving for bama tonight anime south tomarrow ^^ .....seeing cody nervous as hell ive been shaking for the past few hours.... please dont look stupid.... stop being nervouse hes just a guy you;ll be fine .....but my hearts racing and i cant stop shaking and stuttering..... ughhh Current Mood: anxious (Comment on this)
Monday, December 15th, 2008
11:58 pm	Blood Wrestling was fucking EPIC met a pretty cute guy and he was like you must be Miss Zombie I'm Cameron and i was like *swoon* seriously ffucking hot... the match was a stalemate ^^; I got pinned bunches cause the bth cheated....>< ughh but it was still very epic amazing sat night and since i dont work tomarrow i'll post mre on the lunatic lounge then ^.^ Current Mood: sore (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 9th, 2008
12:32 am	im having a weird now counting 7 people asking me out/ asking for my # >>;; .... it's like high school all over agian and i hate it i miss chris Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Riddlin' Kids - Here We Go Again | Powered by Last.fm (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 4th, 2008
2:52 am	Long post warning... looking back now i have realized i have made many mistakes concerning my future....I'm living life to what i desire it too be but i still want more. I want more outta life i want to leave this country behind....I don't want a guy any guy to be the cause of any stance i put into my future... so I've decided not to move to Bama Chris has little to do with this decision but i don't think my future will really excel there i want to stay here for now and look into getting an Education. I'm also looking into Job Corps and this cool program Projects Abroad I think either decision will be a good one.... and Temple U Hasn't completely left my thoughts either...Although i want to Major in History and Teach so i can influence a teen like my teachers influenced me to make the most out of my life... I have plenty of time and I'm still young so why not spend lots of time in school learning...gaining knowledge....and traveling...isn't that what I've always dreamed of In order to get my life on the right track I'm taking a hiatus from dating and guys....ya ya you've heard me say this before but this time i am motivated and i want to do SOMETHING.....ANYTHING with my life.... i dont want to become like my managers at McDonald's i DO NOT want that....This to be my life...I refuse... I have a to do list that im writing....2009 will be the year that i start to shape my future...It's time for me to slghtly grow up... and i kinda want to be theperson taht people are proud to call a friend someone that People will be proud to call a girlfriend....not embarrassed or used as a trump card cause they know their parents will not like me.... so my apologizes if i change a bit hopefully it'll be for the best. I think...no i know this is what i need to do ^.^ wish me luck I'm going to need it @-@ ughhh ~ Also going to get back in to sewing and making my own clothes.....@_@ My individuality is suffering right now X3 <3 For once I'm at a fork in the road and instead of running away or choosing a path that suits now not later...I'm going to take the hard road....the challenge...and hopefully it wont kill me <3 ~maddi Current Mood: determined (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 29th, 2008
2:24 am	told chris i wasnt moving...... and then today well tech yesterday we broke up... mutally mind you.... We jsut wont have the time fir each other soon ..... still makes me sadfaced though Current Mood: sad (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2008
5:13 am	i did and decided i did and decided i don't regret my recent actions or my recent decisions <3 Current Mood: happy (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
6:35 pm	aggravated in my head is a pretty dangerous place~ Current Mood: aggravated (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 14th, 2008
4:06 pm	something i realized this is called livejournal but i know i refuse to rite about my true thoughts and feelings for fear of how other people will react or look at me and really i think its a bit dumb ..... sadly i'm a bit too addicted to LJ to quit but who knows maybe ill start posting my true feelings oh btw for anyone who pays attention to the atl rumor mill.... i am not engaged XP what a silly rumor Current Mood: sick (2 Comments |Comment on this)